Ama decided it was time to get closure from what she described as “the most painful breakup one can ever go through”. Be it platonic or romantic, going through a breakup can leave one with such intense hopelessness.
Just like most millennials, Ama can be described as emotionally unavailable. The idea of shouting “yes, I will marry you!” to a tall darkskin man with a nice beard and possibly a banging personality seemed like one of those things Ama was never going to experience. She knew it. Her family knew it. Ama loved her freedom so much that she was not going to risk it for someone who was likely going to cheat on her with his 23-year-old secretary and ask for a divorce two months into the marriage - just like she had seen in Nollywood movies. Perhaps this is why her sister, Naana was surprised when Ama disclosed that she had been dating someone for ten years and needed help getting closure because they broke up. Naana had never seen this side of her sister.
Naana is the complete opposite of Ama. Unlike Ama, Naana is a hopeless romantic who believes in being vulnerable and fighting for the things you love. Naana was just 20 but she knew so much about relationships and the little things that made a relationship successful. Ama felt that if there was anyone who was going to help her get Kofi, her ex-boyfriend back, it was going to be Naana.
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After what felt like eternity, Naana informed Ama that she was done writing the “final apology” also known as the final attempt to get an ex back. Ama then decided that in order to call Kofi and successfully profess her undying love, she needed to do a little bit of yoga to calm her nerves and control her breathing. Apart from her parents’ number, Kofi’s was the only number she ever bothered to learn.
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It was time. Ama took her phone, punched in the numbers and put it on loud speaker so her sister could listen in on the conversation. “Hi,” Ama said, trying her best not to bring up the Hawaiian pizza her sister ordered for dinner. “Hey, what’s up?” he responded. Until the breakup happened, Ama underestimated the attachment she had to Kofi. How his voice managed to keep her calm and stable anytime he called and how his words always made her feel safe. She started as her voice trembled, “um…I called to say something so I want you to listen and if you have something to say later you can go ahead. I know we already talked about this but I want you to know that I am sorry for pushing you away over the years and for making you feel like you do not mean a thing to me. After our break last summer, we talked and agreed to take things slow and I honestly thought that things were going smoothly” – she paused and took in a deep breath – “I know that you have moved on with someone new and that sucks because we promised to let each other know if our feelings ever changed", she said referencing her favourite Kwesi Arthur song. "I don’t know how the past weeks have been for you but it has been hell for me. My anxiety is worse. I am triggered by anything and everything. I guess what I am trying to say is...can we try again? I truly do want to make this work. I love you, Kofi” Ama said, trying her best to convince Kofi whiles acknowledging the thin line between convincing and begging.
After what seemed like 3 hours of talking, Kofi lets out in a frustrated tone, “I told you nothing is going on between Nessa and I. I just need a break to find peace”.
"What does a break to find peace mean?" Ama says to herself. "Is my love so chaotic that you need a break from me to find peace?", she adds.
“So, we are done?” Ama asked. “Forever?”
“We are done.“ Kofi said and lets out a sigh of relief.
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PS: I wrote this after reading an amazing book - Queenie. I am not familiar with this style of writing but I hope you like it haha :)
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